Today’s daily prompt asked me if I am now where I thought I would be at 16. No. I’m not. But I think that’s more because at 16, I had no idea where I’d be in my thirties. I never had my life all figured out.
If I were a pessimist, I’d say maybe I am where I am now because I didn’t have a plan. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail, right?
I don’t think so. Even as a young kid, I think I was pretty sure I wanted to be a lawyer. But in high school, a “friend” of mine said something very discouraging to me. It haunted me for too long. So I went to college with an open mind. I took classes in anything I wanted to (I went to a hippie school where I didn’t have to pick a major). My last year in college I started thinking about law school again. Since I didn’t have any better ideas, why not?
I graduated from law school just in time for the recession. I had a job I loved in a small firm, but this experience didn’t translate so well when I moved to a different state. I’ve been gainfully underemployed ever since. And without any luck in my local legal community, I’m starting something on my own.
So no, at 16, I didn’t think that I’d be starting my own business. I didn’t even think this was where I’d be when I was in law school. My decision to try to do it on my own still scares me.
(title of my post comes from Green Day’s song Coming Clean. Which I probably listened to a lot when I was 16-17.)